With all the time I am surrounded with the days pass quickly, unnoticed. I accomplish very little and don't seem to care. I have adapted some new, healthy habits which are altering my old ones and I'm unsure of the evolution. Physical fitness and mental fitness sometimes feel like two magnets facing the wrong sides and won't snap together. With better time management I could learn to flip them over so they'll connect, but I haven't, though I am trying to learn.
I feel that I tried so hard learning to walk that I never focused on where I was trying to go. So I now stand directionless.
It's funny how you can listen to the same song for years and never fully feel the story. R.E.M is on my top five all-time favorite musicians' list, I have almost all their studio albums and then some, but even after twenty-odd years some songs remain elusive. I kind of like the mystery.
R.E.M. switched record labels in the late 1980's then released the album "Green" which was a defining pivot point in their career. The album carried a different feel from their earlier work with cleaner sound and a more pop feel which you can love, hate, or just go with (I chose the latter).
"Stand" was R.E.M.'s second top ten single, a bubblegum pop song so different than their earlier work. The lyrics are easy to memorize and the meaning of finding one's life direction is quite clear. One line, however, continues to echo through my head, "Think about direction, wonder why you haven't before." Why haven't I?